Last post for the year, this would be. It's the last day of the year, and as I have shared before, was a pretty jam-packed one indeed. So much happened, so much accomplished, so much lost. So much to do, so little time... Tis' a good thing I quit gaming... Now games just bore me... At least I'd have much more time for friends, family and loved ones. And of course, for myself. The year-end season also seemed to have come with many relationship problems for all my friends here and there... Keep your head up and be strong. You're all better off without them anyway. =)
As the year draws to an end, I'd like to wish every visitor a Happy New Year and may you all fulfill your desires and future undertakings. Live happy, Live strong. Be well. Especially you.

I'll be posting my New Year's Resolutions on the first day of the New Year, on the first post of 2008. And I'll be changing the blog to do what I originally intended it to. =) Won't tell you just yet.

§~~~HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008~~~§

At least TRY to smile more =)

Blue Skies ahead.

I need a CD-Repair Kit...

Need new furniture...

Need to find more things to do.

Want to go camping

Sigh...

It happened again. Yet again, we missed out on dinner. All because of 'circumstance' I presume. I guess I'll have to order take out, now that I've told mom to not cook my dinner because I'm supposedly having plans. Well, I really can't blame you, because it's not exactly within your control. Yet, I find it saddening to see you stuck in situations like this, partially because of me... Still, I simply cannot bring myself to stop spending moments with you, because that's what my heart yearns for. I just want to. I'm so gonna go to hell for this, but I think it's worth every bit. Oh well.

Tis' a slow day, with me munching on tidbits left right and centre. I feel like a glutton; there's just so much I want to put into my mouth... Sushi from NihonMura where we had it together before, Chicken Shnitzel from Blue, where we had it together before, Chicken Rice from a certain food court where we had it together before, pasta, chicken wings, hotdogs, all where we had it together before... Well, I guess besides the food, I miss the times we spent as well. It just tastes better.

Is this an obsession? Probably, I don't know. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? You decide. All I know is that I'm living well and happy. Can't be bothered with how other people think anymore. Really.

JZ

Rain rain and more rain...

Hello~

Hmm... Much has happened yesterday and today... As always, our plans were thwarted by the same individual. It happens so regularly that I really can't be bothered to complain about it... =P Oh well, at least you had a good night's rest. Got stuck there stoning and answering random questions... Even an sms I received would be responded by a question,"Her har? =)". Like FTW man... Do you really not trust her that much???? Anyway, why is it everytime I see you arguing, I always feel that there's less and lesser reason for you to carry on? Don't you find that these regular arguments are really tiring and annoying? You could just put a stop to it just like that... It just takes decisiveness and firmness... You could be much better off, again I say. Oh well..

Yesterday's facial was good =). Seriously wish I could have the skin quality I used to have over a year ago... Will take some time I suppose. So far things are looking good. Thanks =P. I enjoyed every moment of the facial, except the threading... That hurt like hell alright... Especially enjoyed the sweets you'd give me while trying to wake me up each time I fall asleep =D, much like Sleeping Beauty, in some way or another... Hahaha (the way you like it) ...

The lunch at Fort Canning yesterday morning was pretty fine... Though we really find that the pole dancer bit was a little old... Expired, rather.. Legends does hire some pretty sloppy staff... Sloppy sloppy sloppy... Tuck in your shirt, girl..

Went for a tiny picnic today. Weather was still unrelenting... It just HAD to pour and stop a few times, damnit. Thankfully we met a overeager friendly malay couple with a HUGE ass of a tent with plenty of space to share. Pretty cosy... May consider getting a huge ass tent myself; sounds fun to have a camp session every now and then. Keep a lookout for me yeah?
Things to get may include:

1. Huge ass tent
2. Folding chair
3. Beach towel
4. Igloo ice box (optional)
5. Small handy broom (for dusting interior)
6. Sponge (for removing water)
7. Power torch
8. Sleeping bags
9. Portable fan / Hand fan (=P for pampering)
10. Trolley (for mobility)

Gosh! That's a huge list of things to consider for a simple camp trip... Will wait for a sale somewhere or something I guess...
Miss walking along the beach... Brings back memories.. It's been sometime since I last did so with a loved one... I guess it will have to wait. The time will come, I believe. I believe it will.

Remember to draw up your New Year resolution list alright! Don't forget... Let's share then, like we promised. Mine is still underway; have lots to think about and consider before I make it so; wouldn't want to have resolutions I can't fulfil... Make it a good one, yeah? =) Take care there.. Hope things are fine..

JZ

Time of the year again...

Each and every year, there will be a time frame where each and every person starts to get really emotional (popularly known as EMO for short), and think back on past happenings. For myself, it's around this time of the year, just before the New Year starts. What goes on is that people will think back on good things that has happened to them, the bad moments that has occurred, and the chances missed out on. Also, some think of what they'd like to do for the New Year, what people call 'resolutions'.

Well, personally, my resolution list is in the midst of formulation and finalization eventually before it will be revealed. Till then, stick around somewhere. The past year has been lean, with more poor moments than joyous occasions... The familiar would understand my point; others can only hope they'd understand more... Tis' not a good thing to be telling the world, you see. Cheer up, I'll tell you the good things that has happened.

For starts, I got contracted into regular service in the RSN under my choice vocation, the Naval Chef. It would, I believe, be a stepping stone for my future, and would be a much more rewarding experience, as compared to being a combatant as a gunner or comms specialist... Onwards and upwards I'll move on and on. =)

Next up, I got to know a Queen, one who commands respect and summons fear in me. Someone who's bidding I do, and someone who can influence me at her whim. Sounds weird huh... Yeah I know it does... Don't overreact, nor read too much into it... Get real, people...

Also, I've gotten to know a hell lot of people this year, from the military and also outdoors. There were people who I'm glad I got to know, as well as people who you'd rather leave on the shelf... Well, the world exists in a balance... Each rotten fug-hed is balanced by a good one. Glad it works that way.

Finally, before I close today's entry, I'd like to mention that I believe I've matured mentally as a result of the course of events that took place this year. Life, I'm ready for you. I'll tackle you the way you'd never imagined I would. Because I learned, because I braved the weather; the scars I carry with me serve as a reminder that never fades, never leaves. I'm here. Come get me.

JZ

Boxing day~

Ahh... Christmas is over, and Boxing day is over in about 45minutes from now. =D Holidays are always so so short... But well, make the most of it and it'll be fine I guess.

Didn't have to go back to camp today. Instead, early in the morn woke up just to go down to Yishun SAFRA for a Boxing Day (more of a post Christmas Lunch for the unit...) lunch/gathering. So WTF-sick-and-tired with the administration... It was said that the programs start at 0900 hrs, but the guys and I were slacking till like 1000hrs... Thank God I brought my Zen player... Filled with nice pictures and nice music =P You know... haha.. Anyway, they like mentioned that programs would be paid for... Ended up we had to pay for our own pool game. Actually intended to bowl.. But ain't worth it I guess. Still, haven't played pool for so long, yet I suppose I could still defend myself pretty fine... So long as it's enough to not humiliate myself..

Lunch ensued at 1200hrs. Food was fine, but the fun part was with this bottle of sparkling juice every table was issued. The fun started when people started popping them open without thinking of the consequences. We heard 'whoops' and even an 'ouch' in the distance. Thank God we didn't hear a 'smash' anywhere. Pressurized bottles with a projectile are always fun things to have on your hands. =) A Lucky draw took place; didn't win much... Exchanged them all away anyway, simply because I had no need for the items...

Went down to IKEA for dinner and a walk-a-talk with ma Queen (and circumstance for awhile). Well, the day seems short, but still, isn't a bad boxing day afterall. =) Stay tuned~

JZ

Sigh... So near, yet so far.

Merry Christmas to all who come forth! =) Yes, indeed, the day has come. It's been a long and arduous year for me; so much has happened, I don't know where to start... This December also marks my 1 full year in service. I officially enlisted on the 16th Dec 06, finished my BMT in March 07, went to OETI for my Technician Course, finished about Jun-ish 07, went on to Pasir Ris camp for my attachment till about Sept 07, then went on to Changi Naval Base for my Seamanship course till Dec 07. =) And now, in Sembawang NDU Camp for my Naval Chef posting.

I signed as a Naval Chef regular with the Republic of Singapore Navy in 2007, and I've never looked back. Many ask, why? I say, it's rewarding. It's a stepping stone for my career, and my future is in my hands; I have to make things happen, I have to take the first step. Step at a time, I'll look far and aim high. It will be done. Make it so.

16 Sept 07 also marks the day that AnRu and I were officially separated. It's been 15months and 27days. Again, so much happened during that 15M27D period. We sent off an angel, with only memories to keep forever. It ain't easy, but it just had to be so.. Be strong.

I got to know a mighty Queen in Q4 of 2007, and it's been a rollercoaster ride, filled with unexpected twists, turns, ups and downs. Still holding on tight, still braving the tides, I still survive, and I still am pressing forth. It's nothing like I've ever experienced, and I believe. I believe it can work, and I believe that it will be fulfilling. Knowing what you want in life is one thing. Pursuing what you want in life is extremely important. Not quitting pursuing what you want takes character. That I have.

Enough of reminiscing for now.

Yesterday we went for a movie~ =) Yeah~ The tickets invited me, so I just asked and we went. What show? I am Legend. This is his legacy. =P Relatively unsettling show... Does have it's freaky moments, though it wasn't boring. Full of action when the action scenes come, and laced with comedy and "awww..." moments in the others. Sure, there was a "SHIT!" scene where the cinema bursted out (whispered actually..) with "Shit..." at random locations, within split seconds of each other. Yeah... I probably shouldn't spoil it for people who have yet to watch it. Yes I know I'm reeaaallly considerate and sweet. Thanks in advance. =P. In the meantime, go book your tickets and watch the show. It's pretty fine, I'd say it's worth the money. Bring excellent company and it'll be a bonus. =) I enjoyed my company for this movie and every other movie we've been to. I really did~! Thanks~

Had a talk after the movie, though it was cut short by unexpected circumstances... Oh well, a pity... So near yet so far... Didn't really get to finish, but do hope it could continue. I get irked everytime conversations get left off halfway and takes a long time later before it gets completed, or even never... It's like watching half a movie or reading half a book... Bet you hate that too... A stalemate ensued, leaving awkward moments and 'urm' sessions... Quite FTW.. Why can't Christmas Eve be a little more relenting... zzz..

I STILL find that it's pointless and that you have to be firm with your decisions... You've already decided on a few counts... And it's already been said that it would be much better; discussions have already concluded with with same thing time and time again, and moments have already proven that you like it better the new way. Let it be so, won't you?

Less than an hour before Christmas fades away. And then people'll be counting down for 2008! =) I wish for a peaceful and prosperous new year, and also wish for the first for the new year =P First what? You'll find out. You'll see. It'll be a good year, I assure.

JZ

Seasons Greetings!

Home sweet home~. Feels good to be back this early from camp. In case you were wondering, YES, I had to go back to camp for half a day, but at least it was for a purpose. Today's lunch was a Christmas lunch. Turkey, Log cake, pudding, twas' all there, nicely set up and ready to be attacked by ravenous divers. Ate jellybeans that tasted like soap and nauseating ones too. The things people put into candy these days... Damnit.

It's Christmas Eve! Yeah~ It's been awhile... Last Christmas was around the time when I just enlisted into the Army. The Tekong Cookhouse had such a feast for us on Christmas Eve, with chocolates, carrot cake (not your local fare...) with white chocolate icing and fruit cake. Could so bet we all put on a pound there and then... Only downside is that the weather happens to be EXTRA rainy around this season... I suppose... Any colder it would have come as snow, which probably would be a very welcome sight in sunny Singapore.

Turns out as well that the day before was 冬至 （Dong Zhi). Which the chinese signify as the start of the winter season on the lunar calendar. Had my favourite plain 汤圆 (Tang Yuan) laced with plenty of ginger. Sweet, spicy and warming. How much more cosy can a bowl of sweet soup (甜汤）get on a rainy day?

Yesterday was a rest and relax day, and it was a good one with excellent company. =) I relish the moments, and am looking forward to a great Christmas and rewarding and fruitful New Year with Resolutions! How many of you actually set New Year Resolutions and stick to them? Now now, have some discipline and stick to what you promised yourself you'd do for the New Year ahead. I'll be coming up with a finalized list real soon. Stick around~!

J Z

Woo Hoo~!

Up, brushed, and fed. Woke up satisfied indeed. This goes to show that nothing can stop those who put in effort to make things work, and things will turn out fine. Last night twas' the barbeque at Pasir Ris Park. Sure, many would love to raise the point that it rained a few times last night. Well yes, rain it did, but go prepared, and no rain can stop you, your friends and the fire from having a good time grillin' prawns and wings alike. No one prepares to fail; they only fail to prepare. Was laughing our arses off at people who walked out on their fire and left it to brave the rain and be reduced to a smouldering heap of semi-cooked food and ashes. HA!

I come with pride, with lessons well learnt from the Navy and the Army. We came prepared with standard D&G olive green ground sheets and a spool of coms cord, shielded the fire and food from the unforgiving rain. Well, some of us did end up getting wet, but someone had to do the ropework. No matter, we survived with proud moments, being just about the only pit with a fire burning brightly, and carried on with our eat-drink-and-talk time. Afterall, how many can say that they ever barbequed in the rain? Though the turnout wasn't full strength, but we still had a roaring good time.
Cheers goes out to the:

Chief Organiser, Erin (too adorable for her age),
Chief Chef, Hafidz (deprived driver),
Chief Finance, Krimi-Tim (intimidating indeed),
Chief Logistics, myself =P (single, young, unavailable =) ),
Queen Bee, Doll-PZ (*smiles*)
Supplies Spec, Honda (Single, Aging, Desirable =P ),
Archive Support Spec, Meng Siong (pending ORD-ist)

and all the participants of the event! This includes the Pinoy Homies, Stan, Meow, the ladies, Kenneth, and much more (so many names.. =P) !

Pictures will be loaded as soon as they're out from the printing press~ Be patient.
Christmas will be sweet~ Have a great rest people. I believe most of you are still in bed... Lucky you..

Especially you. Rest well, the weather's fine today, so relax~

Sigh...

Mmmm... Late night posting... Becoming a trend these days I see... It's 0522 and I woke up about an hour ago. Checked and saw msgs left by you... Sorry I wasn't around to respond to them... You know I definitely would if I could... So darned hungry right now, but I don't have the habit of suppering alone. Supper tastes best with company, don't you think?

Work has been tiring today, with all the prep work necessary for Monday's Christmas eve lunch. Expect lots of food and miscellaneous dessert/sweets for Christmas... Last year in Tekong they gave chocolates, fruit cake, carrot cake (the western one, you idiot) with white choc icing, turkey, German sausages etc. Twas' indeed a day you'd choose to eat at the Cookhouse... Wouldn't be the day you'd like to work IN the cookhouse though... Sigh...

For the movie buffs, Warlords is worth watching if you are into violence, though nearing the end the story gets slow, draggy and dry.. Otherwise it's worth watching. As for National Treasure, the storyline is approx the same as the prequel, with this 'Indiana Jone-esque" character going treasure hunting. Only difference is that it's about a different treasure... So if you liked the first one, just watch this one. Average show, but does make you wonder about the secrets the US are keeping. Every nation has their fair share of secrets and coverups... What for? Intellectual advantage over other nations, in my opinion... What a waste of resources and time over keeping secrets the way they are supposed to be...

You've been weird last night and tonight... You were ravenous, hyper and mind-boggling 28hours ago, and just 8hours ago, you were emotional and reserved, keeping to yourself and refusing to open up... Speak you mind, tell me, so that I may help you... Live for yourself. Cheer up~ *Hugs*

Guess I'm off to read a little... Don't think I need anymore sleep for the day... Just gonna read till the bugger picks me up for groceries later...

Dark, Cold Night

0300hrs. Tis' late, yet I'm not in bed. Why? Well, you know why. ;)

Christmas is just around the corner, yet I do not feel the spirit within me... Has it faded with age...? Has it just lost it's significance? I hope not... I wish for the best for the year ahead, and seek to resolve disputes between family members and peers. I seek to be what I want to be, and be able to have what I'd really want...

Simple day I guess... Watched National Treasure... Interesting, I must say, though I honestly prefer the prequel... Shan't spoil it for those who haven't watched it yet... I'm thoughtful, aren't I. =) Met up with the group and discussed tons about the upcoming meet... Hope it turns out well =P Sigh... Off to bed, whether I like it or not...

Make up your mind...

Tis' a rainy morning... Freaking cold, woke me up early in the morning...

Sometimes I wonder, what goes into a promise? Is it a passing remark that's supposed to make people feel better? Or is it something that has to be honoured as a deal between people? Sure, some people keep their promises, but circumstances may, of course, cause otherwise. Oh screw it. I'm not going to stay home and wait for a response which may result in a fine holiday wasted at home just stoning. Not that I'm blaming anyone, just that I'll manage my time much more efficiently and accomplish much more.

Wake up. You're still blinded, and I still think you would be better off. I stand firmly, by my promises and I'll always be around. Watching. Waiting.

First Post, New Beginning for the New Year to come.

Here. I know it's frickin' long overdue, but it's finally here. What, you ask? The bloody blog... I don't know.. The past year has been eventful ( I shan't mention too much...), and led me to think a lot about what I really want to do for myself and what I want for myself. Sure it involves being nasty or selfish sometimes, but I've decided that life is too short for me to hesitate. Enough with procrastination, time for change.

So stay tuned, I believe this spot will be regularly updated, now that I'm in a stay-out unit (Naval Chefs Rock) =) .